June 2021 beginning

Derek Rydall talks about how if your eye be single your whole body will be full of light.  I think that might be from the bible not that Derek nor I are religious people.  These are mystical truths, principles, laws.  It makes all the difference to see that.  I have been focusing in my energies in on the one or two things which for me are no doubt library work and library school.  I have so many other dreams but those two are the most important commitments that I have.  I have been trying to let my mind open and take in new unthought of energy and information that will objectively help me and take me to truly new and good places.  As Derek says, problems aren’t something that you solve, they dissolve as you evolve.  You have to let Thy will which is a word for life itself, truth etc. be the will that is at your inner most core.  I think it takes a choice.  You have to allow it.  You have to give it permission and allow it into your life and mind but it is truly more expansive than you can even imagine and really takes care of you in a very beautiful way.  It loves you as itself and you need to do the same.  Love yourself.  Not as cliché but for real.  Really love yourself.  It might not be what you think.  Really love yourself, fiercely.  Care about your own divine self, your Self more than any for it is all, it is spirit, it is life, it is truth principle.  It is not bad to love that self, that Self more than anything in fact itfeeds divine positivity.

I know I am made of amazing stuff.  We all are.  It is not wrong to proocalim that.  Do it while we are alive for God’s sake.   Live into it.  Feel it.  Be it.  Now is for living.  I am reminded while I am listening to Eagle Eyed Tiger that I have been to Paris multiple times.  That I have been all over Europe.  That that will always in a good way be with me and all the shit can just go away truly.  I had some awesome experiences.  I just couldn’t keep it going at the time or I didn’t want to or just chose not to.  My life went into a dark chrysalis, and I have come out the other side a radiant star.  I am just getting started at life I get the feeling that you are too if you are reading this.  We have a shit ton to do.  This is all for real and is for us.  I feel millions, billions trillions of dollars within me all just the petals of my blossoming power.  Not to mention the radiant scent of night scrawled deep within the veins of the stars.  We are one.  Don’t ever let yourself be anything other than who and what and how you are.  For it is beautiful.  You are beautiful.  Do you know that.  You..are…Beautiful.  Keep it.  Go love be here now forever now